I have been feeling an internal dilemma about doing the MKE… it’s not about the commitment piece. I love holding myself accountable and having the structure/container to support that. I have a strong will and drive, and can do anything I put my mind to. The dilemma is this:

I have recently been diving into the softer sides of myself, the more feminine side… inviting in more spaciousness and pause into my life, allowing myself to breathe deeply, to feel, to contemplate, to muse and to deeply listen.

This has felt like a beautiful unfolding and a soothing balm for my heart in a world of more more more! This slower experience has also felt like a creation of space for deeper wisdom to reveal itself… allowing me to really enjoy life and see how abundant my life truly is, right now!

So why did I feel called to MKE? Well, I felt called to it a couple of months ago while I was doing “Standing Tall” and the “Vision Workshop” with Mark J and crew.

When I felt the yes for MKE a couple of months ago, I feel like I was on a hamster wheel of doing doing doing. I felt like I was desiring more money for more freedom… and when I really dug deeper into this, when I called myself in to slow down, I realized that I was wanting more money to avoid deeper parts of myself. I was distracting myself.

I wasn’t taking the time to slow down the internal dialogue and the “do-ing” energy to be able to see what I have already co-created with my husband… this beautiful abundant life. I wasn’t taking the time to TRULY appreciate it all.

This allowed me to deeply exhale and enjoy the riches that are already around me.

I sit here, and contemplate: “Why am I doing MKE?” What am I looking to get from this experience? Well, I am looking for support and clarity around my DMP.

Writing a DMP feels scary to me because I don’t know how to choose ONE thing.
I weave in many spaces, and I love that.

I realized that I don’t need as much money as I thought I did (don’t get me wrong, I still love money), I just don’t need as much as I thought! And money is no longer my ultimate driving force, at least I don’t want it to be.

I am realizing that as long as I am following my heart, being of service to others and living in the frequency of my gifts… the money WILL flow to me to support my celebration of this life! I realize that the masculine and feminine (action and surrender) are both needed in this life.

My desire for MKE is to be able to find a beautiful balance of both… seeding my sub conscious mind toward my DMP and to also allow for spaciousness and flow to exist… to allow synchronicity and Divine guidance to work its magic.

I desire to remember my softness, to release any grips of trying to control or be in greed.. and to find that dance between having a goal/vision and surrendering to how it unfolds. Here for the ride…