Having survived driving off a cliff on a ATV, transported to the hospital via helicopter and ultimately healing from the multiple injuries, my journey of self discovery was reignited. Why did I drive off a cliff and then regret surviving it?

Married just short of two years at the time of the accident, I felt trapped. There was no solution. We were not compatible. In fact, I really don’t think we liked each other. To trust myself behind the steering wheel again, I sought out professional help. After all, the road went left, and I took a right and just drove off the edge of the cliff. My husband was the only eyewitness.

This began 20 years of self introspection. What was my portion of responsibility? What were my triggers? How best to neutralize them? And the biggest realization: No 1 is coming to rescue me. So how do I rescue myself? I did the work. Lots of it. Multiple modalities. Worked with experts. Our relationship wasn’t getting any better. I could only control what I could control.

How do you make peace with someone who has no intention of making peace with you? I prayed daily to enter permanent sleep. There was no way to help this situation.We experience typical highs and lows in many marriages. And somehow I got blamed for all of them.

I was never enough. Choose any facet of life, I was not enough.

Covid happened, and I took advantage of the opportunity to resume learning how to make money online. I learned a lot wasn’t really interested in any of it, but I was fascinated by the mechanics of it all.I didn’t make much money.

It was just so much work.

I realized I needed to encourage myself and I needed to find goals that really got me leaping out of bed every day to pursue them. I was in a two year mastermind to learn how to make online programs and scale the business.

Learning how to is easier than actually doing it.

Year three got me to a weeklong marketing event that changed my life forever. At that event on the second day, I randomly sat by someone at dinner who would change my life for the better. He introduced me to Mark J. I attended the 12 week course TNGR. It wasn’t until week five that I realized that the weekly sessions were actually LIVE and interactive!

It also wasn’t until week five that I started doing the homework from week one. I never really caught up. I attended every live session and the information blew my mind.

I just sat there stunned.

Once I realized how to post questions during the live presentation, I just poured my heart out. I was intent on learning how to build a bridge from living a life of quiet desperation to living a life of dreams coming true!

I have nothing to lose. I was willing to admit out loud exactly where I was and what I wasn’t able to do according to the instructions for the class. Emotionally i was spent and desperate. And that was OK. That was acceptable. That was enough to be able to continue with the class.

What got me taking more action was Mark J’s answer to my question, “So you mean to tell me that if I just do the work that I’m told to do in this program, I absolutely will reach my goals?” To which he calmly and resolutely said, “Yes.”

#BOOM! And THAT was the moment that I went back to week one to start doing the homework. I raised my hand every live call after that to ask questions and get help because if this is gonna get me to where I wanna go, I wanna start yesterday!

To the degree that I could comprehend and implement what was being taught during those 12 weeks, not 100% compliance, I still saw the needle move forward towards obtaining my goals.

Then the MKE began, and it was still a lot to mentally comprehend week one and yet some of the information was cross over from the previous 12 week class. And I realized this first week that if I keep up with the information by doing the habit changing activities as directed… it’s because I CHOSE to do those things.

Want better results? Make better choices. That bumper sticker saying is now loud and clear to me. So even though it is a few hours before the submission is due for my first blog entry, I’m so proud of myself for CHOOSING to do it rather than go to bed.

Here’s to 25 more action packed weeks ahead of us!

Onward!l