Marquise Usher Week 2 Blog – “I am More Than ENOUGH”

Spiritual/Autonomy

I have always had a problem seeing in myself what others see in me. I minimized my accomplishments and successes as “lucky” and never felt comfortable celebrating my success. I often would downplay my wins even to the point of making jokes about it.

I would quickly change the subject or focus away from me and project that success to the other person. I felt unworthy of praise. The strange thing is I worked so hard to be the best to receive the recognition.

It is crazy but I work for something and feel bad when I get what I want. For so long I did not allow myself to want or desire things for myself…. To the point of losing my desires and dreams. This process of self reflection has been difficult but very therapeutic. I am eagerly seeking to meet the girl before the trauma, full of hopes and dreams!