I’ve been very organized with scheduling the 3x readings with prompts for reading out loud or quietly, with GUSTO etc. Also, have reminders set. Yet, during the day, suddenly its 6pm and I haven’t done the mid-day reading. Or holy cow, it’s late and I’m still working, eyes closing as I find my way to bed and falling asleep as I read out loud. Or, getting lost in some of the content and the allotted time has passed on and I’m not complete!

Feeling a blend of disappointment, overwhelm and shock, quite frankly. I think the concrete is fighting to hold on! I think it didn’t think I meant it when I said, “I won’t live as a slave to you or afraid of you ANYMORE!”

Everyday, it is like starting anew, but in a disheveled sort of way, as though I have no prior experience in staying focused and disciplined. I do feel like I’m starting afresh each day, as I determine the actual time to complete the full reading in a meaningful way, drink water and take some breaths!

Then I realized, wait a minute, I actually must do the CHORES lol and not just say that I promise to do them! I love this exercise.

Currently having a love-hate relationship with the process. So I know its working!