This past week was tough, no doubt about it. My old blueprint really fought hard against the changes I’m trying to make. Every day felt like a battle of willpower, and to be honest, I took some hits. I’m not proud of my lack of effort—it’s on me. I kept asking myself, why am I struggling to get things done?
Why is it so hard to stay motivated? My old habits are strong and controlling, and I feel embarrassed that I’ve let them hold me back. There’s even a part of me that’s tempted to quit and just say, “Screw it.”
But this morning, I woke up knowing it’s Sunday—a fresh start. I did my tasks, wrote this blog, did my readings and my sit. Now it’s time to shift gears. Today, I start a new life! I know I’m not alone in this, and like John Wooden said, “Industriousness”—I must do the work. It’s time to overcome my old blueprint and put in the effort I know I’m capable of.
Let’s go! KEEP SMILING!
So proud of you! Glad you stuck it out and are moving through the sludge. You are golden!
Thank you for sharing Darren. I felt the same way yesterday! I know it’s my old blueprint fighting me. I will continue to do the tasks until they become ingrained and automatic.
Congrats! Keep doing the work with a smile!