I know, very clearly, in my soul, what my DMP is. I am a Life Purpose Hand Reader. This work is fascinating to me and when I do it, I am in my zone. Time disappears and the hands speak to me and I am in love in the moment, present. Soul satisfaction is mine.

This is my DMP but I have no interest in reading hands or writing about it in my DMP. I have been writing about it and I feel like a fake.

My Burning Desire right now is different.

I am a Blue in the Colour Theory. In my hands, my heartline is a “you” oriented heartline – another person enters the room and automatically, my thoughts are all about them.

How can I help, what can I get for you, do you need me to just listen to you and I will “bend over backwards” to help others.. I overpromise and under deliver.

Yesterday, when I said I would do that extra thing for you that will take me a couple of hours, well, that was before the person who just showed up today who obviously needs my help more than you do, so now that is my priority.

And what I said I would do for you, well, you are now at the back of my list, number 321. I will get to you, because I care and because I promised. And, I always keep my promises – eventually.

This modus operandi has left me with a lifetime of unkept promises, uncompleted projects and the fundamentals of my life not taken care of. I feel so out of integrity.

Example, I was moving into a friend’s house when the Master Key Experience (MKE) started, so that became my priority and I am not yet unpacked which is unsettling for both me and my friend. The story of my life.

One of my PPN’s is True Health. I look at getting my home and my affairs in order, cleaning up the past and keeping my unkept promises, as fundamental to having a clear state of mind and being in integrity with my heart.

This may be viewed as accomplishments which might get taken care of if I just pursued my passion. Well, I have been doing that tactic for years and here I am.

I feel that this is so critical that I cannot, will not go forward in my life without cleaning this up. Right now, this is all I truly want to do — clear my slate.

I have a very long detailed list of what that entails which I will not reiterate here. It includes both my personal and professional life and my reputation is at stake, if I can resurrect it at this late date.

My other PPN is Liberty, which I consider to be Financial Freedom. I could focus on my Hands work to create this but at the moment, another opportunity has come my way which feels like the right vehicle for me. The time is now if I choose to do it. This is NOT my highest purpose although it is a natural talent being expressed.

So my conundrum in writing my DMP, is that my burning desire now is to work on these two projects in preparation for doing my Hand Analysis Work starting in the spring once I have cleared my slate and created a solid foundation for my finances.

Is this a big distraction from my true purpose? Is it just in my list of accomplishments or is it a wise decision?

From Day 1 in this course, I have done the daily exercises faithfully. I have had trouble reading my DMP as I feel like I’m reading a lie giving this message to my subconscious because that’s not what my burning desire is. I’m doing it to please other people and I feel guilty about wanting to clean up my life.

By the way, I’m also 76 so I feel an urgency to get certain things like the family photos passed on and a Will done and those “gift” hand readings done for precious people in my life.

Or, am I totally deluded, stuck in the side of focusing on accomplishments and avoiding my Definite Major Purpose?

Or, is it reasonable, figurat