It has been interesting that I have seen fewer red circles than blue rectangles. I had more energy and pizazz to get my chore done last week than I did this week. I wonder if seeing fewer red circles has anything to do with the fact that I’m less in the mood to do the chore this week? Or maybe it’s just because a meditation I did went a little wrong.
I also wonder what depleted my energy and motivation to get it done. Maybe because it was an easier chore last week. The do it now really helped me be motivated last week. I think it has lost some of its fresh new sparkle.I did not think that there would be any wills for the first chapter, but of course there is towards the end of the chapter.
It is a little difficult to read without the will because it does not read properly. My daughter helped me pick a topic to write on. She looked around the room and found my birdhouse with a picture of me and her dad. It was meant to be for my wedding. They were going to be my center pieces.
The birdhouse is deep pink with hearts and flowers etched into it along with a bird on a branch. The color scheme for the wedding was going to be teal, pink, and yellow. Her dad and I are still together and we still have not been married. It has been 16 years so far. We have not gotten married yet because I want a decent sized wedding and we or our parents do not have the funds for it.
I’m excited for this program to start working because I am ready to be in the flow of my consciousness. In hopes that someday soon I can make money.
