Things are definitely starting to heat up. As my subby adapts I’m starting to realize more and I think I may have made a mistake back in Week 2.

One of my PPN’s is likely wrong.

At first that was scary since I’ve been working on my DMP for 4 weeks now but I realized it’s just something that needs to be corrected. It’s a speed bump.

But at the same time it’s not something that should be changed lightly.

I briefly thought, “I should ask if I’m allowed to change my PPN,” but almost immediately discarded the thought.

It’s my DMP and they’re my PPNs and since I’m committed to seeing this experience through to the end it makes no sense to put in all of the effort to change my subby and my life and worldview if one of my PPNs is incorrect. It’s better to realize now and work hard to correct both the incorrect PPN and my DMP before moving forward.

However, this week I kept with PPNs of Legacy and True Health because this discomfort I’m feeling is still new. I’ll be spending this weekend thinking long and hard about whether I should replace Legacy with Liberty.

(Apologies for being cryptic but I can’t give details) This was all triggered by something extremely personal that has continuously occupied my thoughts for many weeks.

As of right now nobody knows which of the two outcomes will come to pass (it can only be one but like Schrödinger’s Cat nobody will know until an observation happens). I thought Legacy was truly what I wanted because I feel one of the outcomes is more likely than the other but choosing Legacy may have been short-sighted.

One connection made this week comes with the new understanding that some PPNs can unlock others.

My PPN of True Health will help me live longer and get more time on this Earth and time is the one thing we can never get more of once it’s spent.

I want the Liberty to use that time how I see fit because that will give me flexibility with my income, where I physically spend my time, and who I choose to spend my time with. Liberty can actually help me build my Legacy more effectively should the more likely outcome manifest.

Even if the less likely outcome comes to pass I think Liberty will still make my life exponentially better than Legacy.

So much time has already been spent on my DMP but I’m going to figure all of this out during week 5. I’ll be asking my guide about it but only after I think long and hard about all of this on my own first. I can literally create whatever life I want. What EXACTLY is it I want and will those things get me other things as well?