Week 6! Wow. I am loving it. This week, I am focused on keeping up with all of the other skills i had before Master Key Experience (MKE) (manifestation, positive thinking, self love, paying attention to my prayer, accepting myself, accepting my lessons, etc.)

Why am I focused on other, non-MKE tools?

Because…. I fell behind! And I considered quitting. I had a wedding and a funeral and health emergencies and everything else. And I missed webinars, my homework, etc. And I thought about quitting.

I truly felt that I wouldn’t be able to catch up. I felt ashamed of myself. I felt like everyone else was probably doing it perfectly and I was “bad”… I felt like a failure.

And then I thought: but why? You’re loving it. Why not just do your best to see if you can catch up, and then see what happens? Why not see what else you can get out of this course, which has already given you so much?

And then I waited and watched for a time that might work to re-watch everything (and that happened), and then a time to do the home work (and that happened)…

And now I’m getting pretty close to being caught up. And I think part of what I am sensing is a poor thought pattern of: if I don’t do something perfectly I’m no good and I shouldn’t do it all – which is nonsense. Are we ever perfect at something while learning (or after?). No.

In the webinar this week, the team talked about living your life for you – not for the ‘dream’ – the thoughts we all have of being xyz thing because we are being advertised to, and we’re taught to feel like we’re not enough if we don’t have [fit body, new product, nice clothes] whatever….

So, when I started to slip and think about quitting i used this teaching. It’s my life. I will get out of it whatever I am ready to get: and I continue to be grateful for this process and this group of people.