This week’s Haanel lesson for me came from the forward:

Emerson loved good and his life was a symphony of peace and harmony, Carlyle hated the bad, and his life was a record of perpetual discord and in harmony. Charles Haanel

I have been noticing as I work, and it is hard work, towards shifting my perspective to greeting each day with love in my heart, to greeting each person with “I love you”, to substituting my thoughts from negative, anger and judgment to positive, loving and accepting, that my subconscious is delivering increasingly triggering events and circumstances to keep me on track with my old program.

I have been observing that I have had a strong tendency to hate the bad. My last few years have been extremely challenging and have cost me dearly, and the emotions of blame, anger, judgement are deeply rooted.

I think this is why my DMP was such a challenge, and is still perhaps not aligned. I still don’t know what I want. I know what I don’t want.

But, I’m getting there. I have made huge leaps forward. Intellectually I get it. The trick is to shift from a reactive state to a calm and deliberate response. It is improving.

This week I responded with a note to an individual who continues to attack my family and simply told them that I forgive them and release them from life, that I would no longer be a part of their karma.

My normal reaction would first be rage, then meet a threat with equal force. I felt extremely empowered to stay calm, and shift to forgiveness. Incredibly liberating.

Then again this week I was in a parking lot where an enraged and aggressive man was acting in a threatening and abusive manner to a woman. I was able to approach without judgement and calm the man enough for him to walk away. No bravado, no escalation, just projecting love and calmness. Wow. What a shift.

I’m not saying that I am over the hump, not by a furlong, but I am noticing a transformative shift in my emotional response. It can only be from all of the practice through the Master Key.

This old programming is throwing everything it’s got right now, but I am slowly melting it with love.

When I think about Emerson and Carlyle it is such a subtle shift. I was in Carlyle camp, but hello future self – that guy is in Emerson’s corner. As I perused the alliances this week a conversation about this came up, and reminded me of a favourite quote of mine from a source unknown:

Those who doubt one small thing can make a huge difference, have never spent the night in a tent with a mosquito. Unknown