This week’s session diverged from the usual format, offering a dynamic Q&A period in lieu of a formal lesson due to the holiday week. The questions posed and insights shared proved to be incredibly valuable, exceeding my expectations.

I found myself particularly engaged with the discussion surrounding the concept of “flailing” as a conscious choice. The consensus? It’s a nuanced issue.

This introspection was prompted by a recent health scare involving my left eye. Thankfully, a retinal tear was ruled out, but residual blood from that incident is causing temporary visual obstruction.

This experience led me to contemplate the potential connection between my physical well-being and my internal state. Could this physical challenge be, on some level, self-imposed?

To navigate this uncertainty, I am diligently practicing self-soothing techniques, including positive self talk, insuring internal harmony as I progress through the Master Key Experience (MKE) Mastermind Alliance.

In the past, I often resorted to distraction with unhealthy coping mechanisms while I “flailed” through adversity. However, these strategies inevitably resulted in feelings of depression, weight gain, and an overwhelming sense of falling behind. Truly, they were not good habits for coping.

This time, I am choosing a different approach. I am embracing the discomfort, recognizing that this feeling of “flailing” is simply a phase in the transformative process. It’s an acknowledgement that it’s okay to not be okay.

Transformation can be daunting, but reframing fear as excitement can be a powerful shift in perspective. Indeed, transformation is an exhilarating journey!

I’ve come to a profound realization about managing the more challenging aspects of this process. The key is to embrace them fully. Whether the emotions are positive or negative, exhilarating or terrifying, they are temporary.

I can endure anything temporarily.

Visualizing an endpoint can be incredibly helpful. It’s akin to hosting challenging relatives for the weekend; the anticipation of their departure makes the visit bearable.

The impermanence of experiences, both positive and negative, is an integral part of life and transformation. By adopting a broader perspective, I am learning to view these experiences as happening FOR me, rather than TO me.

This shift in perception is significant. It allows me to recognize that negative thoughts, extreme emotions, and self-sabotaging behaviors are not indicative of personal failings, but rather manifestations of my inner self seeking safety and protection.

Realizing this, I definitely can replace bad habits with good habits of self soothing.

This understanding is liberating. It’s as if layers of self-condemnation are gradually chipping away, revealing a vulnerable yet resilient core.

My Primary Personal Needs (PPNs) remain focused on liberty and total health. I am currently undertaking a juice cleanse, which has been instrumental in my recovery from previous injuries. While I had hoped for a faster resolution to my current eye issue, I trust in the process and my body’s ability to heal.

Mark says that the impulse to eat something only lasts about 90 seconds. I am actively able to simply let the impulse pass through me. I’ve done this before, but the difference is now I see it as me being able to take a bird’s eye view when the impulse comes up and simply not act on it and feel satisfied!

It’s fascinating how past health decisions and self-perceptions, while beneficial, were insufficient in producing lasting positive change. The MKE Mastermind Alliance has provided a framework that complements and amplifies these positive behaviors, creating a robust foundation for growth.

This, I believe, is the antithesis of flailing. Perhaps I needed to flail to appreciate the power of grounded, intentional progress.

Onward!