Focus And Let Go Of The Distractions

I have been stunned this week as Mark, Davene and Lori presented the Week 22 webby. I listened on Sunday, took notes, then listened to the replay, and finally found myself transcribing a specific section so I could really understand and apply it.

The tool of unworthiness. I have suspected for months something like this was my problem. Unlocking unworthiness as a tool and means of sorting out why I have not been able to move ahead with choosing my big dream is now invaluable as I take steps to change that.

All of the times I have resisted ‘facing’ something in MKE have now prepared me to tackle this head on and recognize it as vital to my progress beyond this point and determining my success. I see the clear benefit I have gained in not shirking from what I am to do next, what the person I intend to become would do next.

I definitely crave a full plate, but I never saw it for what it is: a need to be everything to everyone all the time. And it is being driven by my ego. I have been subtly changing things in my life to diminish that behavior but even so I did not see it what it really is: my ego driving me away from my dream.

There have been a few points in my life where I’ve had the opportunity to start over, but, I keep doing the same thing, filling a new plate full.

I never really allow myself to follow one dream at a time and become excellent at that one thing, because it’s much easier to do many things half-way, without excelling at any of them, AND I am addicted to that set of peptides, more importantly. (I just looked back bit and realize that I did UNCONSCIOUSLY use the addiction term, ‘crave’, didn’t I? Hmmm.)

I do feel as if I finally have the direction and context I require to understand this about myself and move on from here. Daily I will sit with this until I recognize and heal from my indecision. It really is wonderful to understand why I do this and know that I don’t have to do it anymore.

I also noticed when Mark spoke about how the machine controls our behavior by fear, I realized that this is what I do with my adult children. I feel compelled to warn them to be careful about this or that because I want them to be safe.

My thinking is: if I warn them, they will be safe but if I don’t warn them to be careful and they get injured or worse, I will carry the burden of my negligence. And that is probably a peptide addiction too.

This too needs to be observed and diminished in my life. Do my kids EVER say, Oh, Mom, thank you so much for reminding me to be careful because I always forget? Uh, let me check….. NO! I have taught them what they need to know and they have learned the rest on their own. I can let go!

From the early days of MKE I have been fascinated by the role of peptide addiction in our behavior and now I am finally seeing how powerful a factor it is in the behaviors I need to overcome.

R2A2. Believe it or not it wasn’t so long ago that I stared at those 4 characters and didn’t know what to do with them. Now it is second nature. The person I intend to become wants me to use R2A2 and now I get it. I focus on my Big Dream…. Now.

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