Oops!

It’s been an interesting two weeks. I managed to get as sick as I’ve been in a very long time. It really threw me off my game. This morning, for the first time in more than two weeks, I woke up, feeling more like myself; it feels really good.

I was sick enough that Rob actually offered to make me soup. I know you don’t know who makes the food in this house, but that in itself says something about how sick I was.

I usually throw things off in a few days. I joke that I give myself 24 hours to be sick and then I’m back at it. Part of what I did that wasn’t helpful was I dragged around being sick for the first week and kept doing what I needed to do at work. In retrospect, that was probably not my best decision.

It’s not been wasted time, however. I got great clarity on what the Master Key Experience (MKE) has been about, the value and the importance to me. I have not been perfect through this process, but I’ve tried really hard and I’ve done pretty well. I know the areas where I have been less effective and the reasons why. They are correctable.

What I realize is when MKE began, I started setting my alarm for 4:30 AM. Sometimes I was up at 4:30 but nearly always. I was up and downstairs by 5 AM. I would read MKE, do my sit and read GS. I was very faithful to that and it worked for me. I would do my readings out loud and go through my cards and write more cards.

When I got sick, I just couldn’t get up at 4:30. I also spent most of the day on the couch unless I had to do something for work. I would drag myself out, do it, masked of course, and then come back and land on the couch. Most of what I was exposed to during this time were my much loved 1930s and 1940s black and white movies and Friends reruns.

I also realize looking back, that I slipped back into being on social media a lot! This slip contributed to the change in my mood, my thoughts and my progress forward. I also didn’t do my readings faithfully. I only missed a few sits, but I did miss a few.

While I’m disappointed about my lack of progress, and even my slipping back, what this did was reinforced to me the value of MKE and the work required to make changes in a brain that’s been doing what it’s been doing for as long as mine has.

I’m back at it this morning and more determined than ever. I was able to spend some time looking at where I got stuck in the MKE process.

Part of what happened was that week six when the shapes came to play, I didn’t have my DMP nailed down and I felt I had nothing to put in the shapes because I didn’t know what I wanted to be “when I grow up”. I wish I had been farther along with my DMP, but it is what it is.

I also realize setting smart goals and executing them is a rather large hole for me in my life in general.

I did not get up at 4:30 this morning, but I did wake up at 6:30 by myself feeling much better. I’ll be out feeding the sheep, and I will do a Facebook live that I will upload to Lambie Central.

Today I will record my latest DMP over music to replace the one I have been listening to that is now outdated.

This blog post is very late, but it comes from the heart and is submitted with honesty. Again, I’m grateful for this experience of MKE. Although this has been a setback, I guess you can say I’m grateful for having been sick for more than two weeks and having struggled to drag MKE along with me.

That’s pretty much what I’ve done. I will not let it go. It’s too important to my future, and this morning I feel I’m bold and and braver and more positive than I’ve felt in many days. Onward!

See more about what I have learned in my Master Key Experience by clicking here.