Hello, hello all,

I don’t know about one else, but I feel like I’m fighting for this. I feel like I’m in that in between place, where I believe in this course, just not always in myself. Teetering from one side to the other.

I’ve had a track record of not always choosing myself but today I chose to evolve past that. When I get tired or weak and I become vulnerable, the vultures start to circle and I’m aware of it now. It’s not always pretty. I am learning to accept this as part of the process.

I then start to look within and observe what I can do better. Seemingly simple just not always for me. Still, I am fighting for this 1% increase every day. I do believe that I can, but is that enough, says my old blueprint.

It’s completely paradoxical. The old blueprint is quite cunning. It offers comfort and ease but all I want is to be rid of it as it threatens my future. Yet demolition is necessary before the rebuild and demolition is work.

I feel like I know myself, yet I am still getting to know myself. The very essence of me is fighting a part of me that once made life bearable. I feel almost unqualified sometimes to see this through.

Fortunately, my faith is growing and there’s not a day that I don’t cry because of how grateful I am to be doing this work.

I am breaking generational curses. I am creating a better world. I am setting a great example for my children and everyone that I encounter. I am strong and I am sound, and I am able.

This is important to me, so I’m fighting for it. Now fighting is not negative or bad. In this sense it is natural, and it is necessary.

And how do I fight? I surrender and I give up all that I have. I take my steps, no matter how painful. I falter sometimes but I get right back up. I test my own faith, and my faith grows, and I become more aware.

I answer the call, and every call, and I will finish my assignment. And at the end of that day, the gal in the mirror will say, well done. I always keep my promises.

Peace and Blessings,

Lakia McCrae