Freedom to Create the Life I Always Dreamt of ….

Going through the obituaries of strangers and thinking about each individual each day, some people have died young, and you wonder what could they have accomplished had they had more time? What would they give to have just one more day?

On the other hand, I read about extraordinary individuals who appeared to have lived very full lives, living into their late 80’s or mid 90’s very healthy and active. Being involved with their community, having successful careers that impacted the communities that they lived in.

Then one wonders how my life would read. First of all, I have had several near-death experiences over the course of 60 years, and they tend to shake you. Make you consider what is going well, what do I need to change. A near death experience usually has you really think about the life you are living and the direction you are taking.

Yes, I had success at an early age, marriage, a house that I bought at the age of 19, and 5 children before I was 30 years old. A successful career and from the outside looking in I was doing well. But then something happens, and you start to question did I make the right choices? Is this the life I really imagined?

One such near-death changed my life forever. I made promises to God and then when I was asked several years later to fulfill my promises I did. But, to live by my word to God, meant great sacrifices that my family wouldn’t understand, and I didn’t consciously know what or how long that it would take me to fulfill those promises.

I am sure my soul knew what I was in for but not my conscious mind. It had forgotten and if I had really understood consciously would I have made the same decisions? As difficult as it has been, I think I usually look at the bigger picture and the greater good.

Maybe there was a personal price to pay but what did I agree to do in service for God. I survived some health issues (emergencies) and my life was spared. My children had a mother in their life for another 7 years before I was called upon to fulfill my promises to God and be of service.

I am grateful because although it has been extremely tough, I also know that I am fortunate because I could have left the earthly plane decades ago. So, I have always felt God had a bigger purpose for me and I have prayed for years to be of greater service.

I feel my soul knew that we would be living in the times we see ourselves in today. That there would be an upheaval. That all systems and institutions would be on shaky ground, why? Because we had lost our way. Lost touch of what it is to be human and treat one another with respect and honor.

We allowed the institutions to dictate our family dynamics regarding standard working schedules, going from family with only 1 adult working to support the family to a 2-person family with most women requiring to work to help support the family.

The family dynamics have changes as have our children’s education, schedules, expectations from within the communities. People have lost their way, to be a good neighbours, to support your local community, church, school etc.

I feel that at a deeper level my soul knew of the times we find ourselves in these past few years and agreed to help. That meant that I would not be there for my family in the short term but would be able to help in the long run.

Many awakened souls have chosen to take difficult paths to be in a position to help the collective during these dark days for humanity where there has been such suffering, but it is also a time to rejoice, to awaken. To bring about change that will shape the future of humanity for 100’s or thousands of years to come.

This past week has been for me a time to reflect take stock, ponder and allow myself permission to take care of me. I have been running on empty for years. Putting myself at the bottom and my body is speaking very loudly. It can no longer continue the path that I have been on.

I am recognizing that I must love myself enough to make myself a priority. If I don’t no one can do it for me. Running away from myself by being constantly busy isn’t a life. Balance is something I have never known. It is foreign to me.

I have always used time that most people would use to restore their body with adequate sleep to work. I used work as my drug, and it is a habit that I have struggled with my entire life.

When I am stressed or in stressful positions I work as a distraction. Finding time for me and not necessarily doing all the assignments is something I have had to let go of. I am not here to be perfect, and I can not work myself to death to live up to others’ expectations or meet the grade.
The parts of my life that are missing, I need to make a priority.

Take the time. Everything takes conscious deliberate thoughts followed by actions if we are to live a life we always dreamt of living. It could be a simple moment with a loved one, or grandchild. A quiet moment walking in the forest or reading a book.

I certainly know that things can come and go and really are not that significant in the end so long as your necessities are taken care of, but God is infinite so why would I limit God?

What I am seeing is that people, places, and circumstances are presenting themselves for me to fulfill all of my DMP rapidly, but there have been some delays. I take responsibility with the delays now seeing that there was part of me that had been unconsciously resisting the changes.

I realized I had to allowing myself time to be at peace, to rest when I need it and if I am behind not to beat myself up. For me it is all about taking care of self, letting go of things that are outside of my control and being at peace with myself.

The other thing I have really become aware of is that creating the life I want I must first be in gratitude. We have been taught through MKE that gratitude is a cause not an effect. Through gratitude you start to create the energy and vibration to attract like a magnet what you want. Through higher states of vibration, the magnet becomes stronger and stronger.

So, I have used the NARC process and with deliberate intention began to focus on gratitude more and more. To also focus on things that make me happy, that uplift my spirit, no longer being around people or subjecting myself to things that are negative.

Over 40 years ago I turned off the television and the news, because it made me feel ill. The problem was that I just exchanged the tv for the internet and followed alternative news. So, as I progress through MKE I have deliberately made conscious choices to place myself in more positive circumstances.

Spent less and less time with people or situations that are always negative. I am feeling more joy and excitement knowing all things are possible. I am confident that with God, my spiritual practices along with practical applications my life is different today than it was in September, and it is only getting better and better.

I have a clear picture of my blueprint – outlining my Definite Major Purpose but I am also flexible and allowing my life to flow with ease and grace. Ditching the old program, the stress and fear for love, joy, excitement, peace, tranquility, hope and faith.

Please join me as the journey unfolds. The Hero’s Journey – stepping out into the unknown – of adventure, excitement and freedom. Freedom to create the life I always dreamt of with infinite possibilities that God has provided for me, if I dare to ask and venture out to fulfill my hearts desires.

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