I Got an AHA Experience

Did I take it too literal, the sacrifice I have to make for my DMP? Did I search my routines and habits only for the obvious vice, the unhealthy habit, the mechanical routine, the procrastinating or plainly wasting precious time?

Too much salt, too much animal fat, too much sugar, the nicotine and alcohol (and defending yourself that you stick to one glass of red wine each evening)? The endless scrolling through TikTok, Facebook or Instagram foolishness, sex addiction, too much binge watching,  gambling, not able to start the day without my shot of daily news, preferably bad news? 

Here, the Mastermind saved me. It dawned on me that habitual negative thought patterns are as harmful as bad habits and routines that directly affect the physical body.

In my case I recall that when I have to take an important step, come to a decisive moment, when I have to make a choice with far reaching effect, thoughts of fear and successive failure would silently grab hold of me.

Underneath was the desire to succeed and to do the right thing, and no matter how hard I resisted and how I expressed my hopes and wishes for a good outcome, the right choice or preparing the best alternative, these fearful underlying thoughts had already put in motion my fate by auto-sabotaging the outcome: what I feared became often my new reality.

Like a punishing slap in your face, like a dominant force telling you you weren’t ready for progress, I often licked my wounds, counted my losses and moved on, without realizing that the next failure was already in the making.

Until it hit me that the supposedly external force denying me to benefit and grow was a damaged ego that believed firmly in a lifelong role as a victim. And not until I came to a full understanding of how far-reaching the limiting effects were, I wasn’t able to turn this mechanism around.

Surrender our old mental  baggage. Letting go doesn’t necessarily have to be giving up a vice, unhealthy habit. Becoming aware of your negative thought patterns and replacing them by constructive, positive thought is an important step in the process of changing your blueprint. And therefore a valid sacrifice as part of your DMP.