I will persevere.
I am feeling a bit down this week. It is getting quite cold here, winter has finally arrived, I am freezing inside the house many hours a day and Christmas season is coming up. Both things together are quite hard on me emotionally.
This will be the first Christmas that I will be alone after the passing of my mother, my only sibling and now my dad living in an elderly care home that is so far away from home that I must use the whole day to visit him and manage to come home before the last transportation has stopped for the day.
I have at least clarity on the fact that I want to live someplace warmer, but the dilemma comes with feeling so bad when being in places with air conditioning.
I would have to go shopping and that kind of things after all. I must sell the house, yet I have still no idea of where I want to live, so I feel stuck.
I was to the dentist and got a tooth removed and got a lot of stitches and some bone got broken in the process. She also told me that after the last time where she pulled out two teeth there is some damage to the bone and that is why I have pain there and it will probably last 3 months more.
My father is having lots of pain after his two hip surgeries and does not cooperate in his rehabilitation. The physio will talk to the doctor so he can get more painkillers.
I am constantly reminding myself of the mental diet and repeating I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.
I keep trusting the process but feel more and more behind with still no clarity on my DMP, PPNs and plan of action but I will persevere.
