Paradigms and Persistency
I have to say I have had some paradigms come and rear their ugly heads these past few weeks. I was struggling to do the things I told myself I would do. I was letting myself creep into some old habits.
The good news is that I recognized what was happening and decided to change my thoughts of failure and forgave myself for not doing everything 100%. In the past, I could be hard on myself for not doing everything perfectly.
I was reflecting on why it has taken me so long to do the thing I said I was so passionate about. I thought this was my dream. I pondered the question that Davene asked us. What do you really want? She said if we really wanted it, we would be doing it.
I realized that what I thought was my dream is really a calling, and I have been refusing the call.
Part of me is scared because I have never done this and am a bit afraid of the unknown. I’ve been working on letting go of control for the past few years. It’s a work in progress.
What I do know for sure is that I desire liberty and recognition for creative expression. The calling does fulfill those two needs. So, I decided on Wednesday that I was going to do what I said I was going to do no matter what. It feels good to keep my promises to myself.
In part eleven, question 3 it asks; “What is it that guides and determines action?” It is the need, want, and desire which in the largest sense induce, guide and determine action. What we want, need and desire we will take action on. That is a true statement.
I know everything is going to come to fruition just as it says in Mark 11:24. What things so ever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them. I will persist in doing the work one step at a time and I know I will be successful in my endeavors.
