New Insights

This week Haanel´s Master Key lesson gave us an exercise on meditating about insight.

As I heard some bad news about my dad´s health and that he was in a lot of pain, got covid and was hospitalized and his cognitive abilities are decreasing fast I was swept away by feelings of sadness, despair and hopelessness. I want to help him but there is not much I can do and I feel sad that he is going through all this.

I allowed myself to go deep within, to go out and spend lots of time in nature, hiking a few hours a day for some days. This helped me to reconnect to nature and with my own self. I managed to start doing something I have somehow being avoiding and that was really a good help for me.

To spend some time in silence, meditating, journaling, asking myself the difficult questions and finding out what perceptions I was holding, whether they were true or even mine and how I could shift them.

Also I got a message from a friend to pay her back her loan, the message got to me. I felt attacked somehow, it seemed like she took for granted I was doing great financially and was just avoiding paying her.

I tried to put myself in her shoes and communicated back to her telling her I do not have the money yet, that I am working on it, and that I will pay her as soon as I can and that I am going through some challenging times. She got back to me and assured me she does not want to put pressure on me and wished me to take care of me first.

So the insights I am getting are to go more within me and allow myself to be fully me and find myself again, rebuild myself, allow myself to dream and explore what is it that I really want to experience in this lifetime and go for it.