Wow how is it that time of the week already?  Blog time.  The main feeling that I have this week is a feeling of a mellow coming together.  I can’t really think of a better description. It’s a strange feeling of things on the peripheries are connecting but I can’t really put it into words. It’s a feeling or a knowing or both.  

I’ve been feeling a real sense of calm.  I’m less annoyed or frustrated. Things are washing over me way more easily – of course I’m still giving the odd swear at the tomfoolery I’m experiencing on the dusty, pot holed West African roads but it doesn’t really bother me like it would, it’s mostly amusing. 

“I can be what I will to be” is the main thing I’m sitting with this week.  I feel like I have no idea what it can possibly mean whilst at the same time have a knowing that I feel exactly what it means.  This week feels very strange to me.  It feels like a time for unravelling of things — like I just want to take time to sit with stuff. 

In some ways,  though it wouldn’t make sense, I want life to just stop a little so I can catch up and mull over things in my own time but of course without the lessons from life there’s no real way of everything coming together. 

So there we have it, a “blog” that isn’t really a blog at all, that is a little confused and rambling which feels like a perfect reflection of my thoughts right now. I’m not concerned about the way things are right now cos I know that everything will become clear and that there are likely changes and rewiring going on in levels that I have no idea about. 

I fully trust that through this process I will get what I need when I need it.

I’m really enjoying this process. I’m grateful to be here.