This week has been quite hard.

My dad had a lot of pain on one leg and had to be sent with an ambulance to the Hospital, I received a call from his care home about it at 4 pm on Saturday and then I did not hear about him for many hours, I ended up calling at 9 pm, 12 pm still not getting any answer, I passed a restless night waiting to hear something, at 8 am I called again they still did not know nothing,

Then at 10 am the doctor at the hospital called me, he told me my dad had broken a hip and had to had a surgery and I had to sign the consent papers so that they could do the surgery. I was not feeling well and since I live far away I had to figure out how to get to the hospital, eventually a friend said her husband could drive me the next day.

And the next day, Monday, his surgery was performed and went well. Yet I see my dad that suffers from dementia, Parkinson and stroke seems everytime I see him, usually once a week more and more lost, with his eyes looking from far away, he still recognizes me most of the time though, which I am grateful for.

He did not know that he had broken a hip and did not know he had a surgery, he even got a bit annoyed when he was reminded that he had had a surgery.

On the same Saturday that this happened I was going to attend an online healing day, that I have attended before with no problems but this time there were some strange technical things that made it impossible for me to attend no matter how hard I tried to find a solution to be able to join.

Then on Tuesday, shortly after waking up I hit the back of my head really hard and felt dizzy for the rest of the day. I had to go shopping, It is hard for me to drive, so I only drive very short distances and as I was driving I got just slightly hit by another car which made me get more pain in my head and I think that is what also gave me a left shoulder pain, but the worst was that it scared me and the one that hit me not even cared to stop, fortunately there was no damage.

So what does this tells me about my inner world I wonder. What are the lessons to be gained? I sense that one of the lessons is to go within in the silence as we do this week in the sitting and not dwelling or engaging in negative vibrations, choosing to do so, working on it and having faith. Keep being persistent on my self-care and not worrying about others reactions or thoughts, think broader on the higher good and allow myself to also be a recipient of the higher good.

I loved the Master Key Experience webinar where I was made aware of the addiction I have to peptides that keep me feeling not good and how my subby manifest accordingly, realizing that I can change it for the good. And also remembering again that our thoughts are our reality and thus it is of the utmost importance to work on our inner reality.

So although I feel blindfolded and really confused I trust that since I am all in I will turn this around and get clarity on my DMP.