Ok. So this blog entry is about two items. First, I recently observed that I consistently say something like ‘it could be better’ or ‘I’m not where I want to be’, when I’m asked about my business.
I’ve recently noticed that I do that quite often. In fact, at Thanksgiving, my sister asked how work was and noted that I’ve been busy. Rather than responding, “Yes, thank you, I have been busy, and I plan to be busier, to grow my business further,” I say: “I’m not where I want to be.”
Huh!
Ok. I get it. I mean I get myself. I hear what I’m saying. I’m observing that I put myself down. How and when did I learn to put myself down, though? No idea. Well, I do have ideas but that’s for another blog – another time.
What’s important is that I realized that I put myself down. I am so critical of myself that I see only that I’m not where I want to be, that I have not had successes in my business (and elsewhere).
I often see the negative in myself, more so than the positive. I always have. Is that a lack of confidence? Poor self-image? Do I feel I don’t deserve to celebrate? Whatever the reason, it’s certainly not healthy. I don’t celebrate wins. In fact, family and friends (even clients) celebrate my wins more than I do.
I should be celebrating wins. I should be saying, shouting (figuratively when I’m speaking with my sister during Thanksgiving at her home as she cooks dinner) that I’m going to accomplish this and that – that I capitalize on my successes.
That I can be what I will to be.
That is my DMP, my purpose, my goal and all the successes before and to come leading to accomplishment of those goals. But I don’t.
I will, though. I’m working on it. I am observing. I am changing. I’ve created a success/ gratefulness board. (Dream board is tonight. I am terribly behind.)
Here’s something. The other night I dreamt of Master Key. It’s that type of dream one can experience when one is subconsciously thinking about something, particularly when one is thinking about completing tasks for an endeavor.
I do not recall the contents of the dream. I just know Master Key was present.
