Let me begin by saying that between week 8 and week 9 has been challenging, to say the least.

First, I was at destination wedding for my youngest son surrounded by family that had become distant from me. I left an abusive marriage after 17 years, and I wanted to demonstrate to my 5 children that accepting abuse was not acceptable.

I wanted to make sure the cycle of abuse stopped with me, not wanting my sons to think the way I was treated was normal and treat their future wives the way their mother was treated, nor did I want my girls to think that abuse was normal and acceptable as a wife.

As part of the Master Key Experience (MKE), I have fully embraced the daily exercises, trusting the process because my life was nothing like I had intended it to be and I was determined to live a life that was joyous, fulfilling while fulfilling my promises to God and being of service.

In Master Key Experience week 9, part 15 quote”

Visualization is the mechanism of the attachment which you require. Visualization is a very different process from seeing; seeing is physical, and is therefore related to the objective world, “the world without,” but Visualization is a product of the imagination, and is therefore a product of the subjective mind, the “world within.” It therefore possesses vitality: it will grow.

The thing visualized will manifest itself in form. The mechanism is perfect: it was crated by the Master Architect who “doeth all things well,” but unfortunately sometimes the operator is inexperienced or inefficient, but practice and determination will overcome this
defect. Charles Haanel

The above statement was harsh and difficult for me to fully embrace. Let me say this “any mention of the word visualization has been a huge trigger for me.” I do not recall ever in my life visualizing anything.

I could not close my eyes and see anything in my mind’s eye. Just plan black. Nothing. It is something that has haunted me, upset me. I have spent years trying to visualize. I know I have manifested many things in my life that I wanted but I also have had things in my life that I certainly did not want, therefore trusting the process I decided to listen to Davene even though it was an internal struggle to do so.

This past week I was listening to my voice recordings of my DMP, and Press Release while traveling back from Mexico. While in an altered state listening to my own voice recording with Native American flute music playing softly in the background allowed me to begin to see faces, shapes, places. Not necessarily vividly, but it was progress.

I know as an infant I had horrific experiences that shutdown several of my senses. Through many different heal sessions I remember saying I didn’t want to hear, see or smell my abuser. Therefore, I had sent a program to my subconscious mind that has been playing 24/7 for nearly 60 years.

I have worked extremely hard to change my reality, but until now I did not know how to change the subconscious, yet I knew my childhood experiences were dictating my reality.

Tapping into the world within, I knew how to still the mind, go to a place of peace within, but buried even deeper within me, I also carried a lot of fear. Old programs that I didn’t even know existed. I buried them so long ago and distanced myself from it that it was not in my daily awareness or consciousness.

These fears were brought to the surface this past weekend at the destination wedding. Embarrassed at my involuntary body responses to my ex-husband who had been very abusive for 17 years combined with all of the work I had been doing within MKE released so much pent-up anger and fear it surprised me.

Upon reflection it was a blessing in disguise because I believe now that it was one of those blocks that had been preventing me from living my dream life. Buried so deep it was not in my awareness, nor within my consciousness.

After listening to week 9 webinar again, I am now grateful for my experience even though at the time I was angry at myself for the outburst, shocked even at myself and very sad at the wasted years.

Looking back, I do not believe that I could have done anything different. I only wanted to move on with my life and had no regrets leaving. What bothered me so much was that I was dragged into court for 18 years which created both a financial and emotional strain on me.

Taking responsibility and now understanding the unconscious better now, I now know or understand that the unconscious mind will create situations to produce the chemicals it is used to, and, in my case, it was constantly in stress along with extreme fear from years of childhood abuse.

I am learning so many fascinating pieces of information about the brain and body that it is empowering me to continue through this process to heal within and take control of my destiny. To be the captain of my ship.

Understanding that the subconscious mind accepts whatever my voice tells it, and then puts into action whatever is required so that through my voice, my instructions to my subconscious mind become my reality.

This goes back to my DMP which I purposely used the word visualization in my DMP to program my mind that it could visualize. Especially based on part 15 above regarding creating our reality. I was determined to instruct myself that I could visualize wanting to take back control of my life and create the life I was always meant to live.

MKE can be challenging as we change from within, let go of the old you and create the person that we were always meant to be. It takes courage, determination, persistence and support, by thought my thought, moment by moment, day by day my reality is changing, and I am very grateful for meeting Mark and the MKE team.

This is many prayers answered. Years of searching wanting to know how to change me. Thank you to everyone who has paid it forward for the 2024-2025 MKE students, without your generosity I would not have had the opportunity to be a part of this program.

I am forever grateful for your trusting the process and embracing the teachings of MKE by your gifting to me and those in this year’s program. Thank you, Julie