Thoughts and Feelings and Willpower
The past fortnight has been particularly challenging financially. The situation around (lack of) finances has brought this dynamic (or rather blockage) to my attention. It is a pattern that has played out not only in my life but throughout the past three to four generations in my family (I do not know anything about anyone further back in time).
The ancestral patterns around lack / not enough (money or love or opportunity or time and so on) as well as loss… I have almost washed away in the swirling agony of it all … and felt there is no way I can ever break out of this paradigm.
In this context, I applied some laws of the mind – like the laws of substitution and the subconscious and dual thought – and my experience has opened deeper exploration for me about the relationship between Mind and Feelings and Emotions.
Meanwhile, we started with the Scroll Marked 111 this week – and I had a hugely negative reaction to the opening analogy with a bull’s ‘courage’ being rated against his reaction to charging against a lance that has hurt him. What if the charge comes not from courage but rage or even utter useless despair?
And then there is the image of the tree subjected to being cut down by a human. Graphic – and makes the point about persistence – but I was in tears. And it felt like something was missing. Og Mandino is making a point about persistence – but it seems that before we can persist, we need to build willpower. From where does willpower spring?
I do not know – yet.
This past week, I lost my belief that I can change. Completely.
Today, I begin a new life – and my first task is to review and design a new accurate self-image.
I wrote this blog post about Thoughts and Feelings and Willpower. Click the link to see more about my journey.
