Kick Fear
Fear is a powerful form of thought. It paralyzes nerve centers, thus affecting the circulation of the blood. Master Key Experience 19 Mark J.
My physically fit husband going to the gym 3-5 times a week for over 1 1/2 years and I never expected a doctor to say, ” I get upset thinking you might go walking down the sidewalk and fall over or even worse you may be driving the car and have a wreck. You need to think about this pacemaker.”
I immediately said, ” Let’s do it.” He and I looked at each other and he gave the OK.
Anesthesiologists had turned us down three times to put him under for Prostate cancer biopsies. His heart rate was 20 -39 most of the time. The heart doctor sent us to electrophysiologist within 10 minutes. He said he was very busy but to call back the next day and he would find a place in his schedule. We went home and prayed.
We both were scared he was going to die before the surgery. My mind kept saying how am I going to live without him. He was worrying about me too. He was worrying about losing his business and not being able to care for me.
I was distracted and just couldn’t seem to accomplish much.
We told our family and friends! They asked us what we needed God to do for us and what they could do. God was answering the prayers every time.
After Pacemaker surgery I was paralyzed with fear that I would do something to make him pull the two leads out of his heart and he would die. He could not lift anything over five pounds, raise or lower his left arm and he couldn’t drive a car for two weeks.
We were instructed to call an ambulance immediately and go to that hospital where they would do the operation over again.
My husband insisted the second day after surgery that I drive him to all his work places in 8:00 traffic to pick up cases. I gripped the steering wheel so hard that my back and shoulders hurt. Then I had to lift or stretch to pick up items he usually helped with like grocery shopping.
Next was taking him for checkups, two scans, one MRI, surgical marker surgery and five radiation treatments.
His side effects are slowly subsiding this week.
My husband thought a year ago that he didn’t have any friends! I showed him 90 ” thank
you for praying” messages with our photo of him ringing the bell in the Radiologist’s waiting room after completing his five radiation treatments.
Our other fears are small worries! We pray to God. We have the power of thought.
We are ready to live each day being happy!!
Joan, wow—this is huge. The way you and your husband have navigated so much uncertainty, fear, and physical challenges while still holding onto faith and resilience is truly inspiring. I can’t even imagine the weight of those moments, gripping the steering wheel, feeling the exhaustion, and carrying not just the physical load but the emotional one too. And yet, through it all, you both are choosing to live each day with happiness—that is the true power of thought in action. Sending you both so much strength as you continue forward!