I’m not pleased about this blog post part. I’m invested in this course and want to see it to the end. Sure I’m skeptical about the sheer amount of unorganized stacks of busywork/homework- but I see the value of learning to develop good habits, of honing manifestation and breaking down the “cement”.

I am not like a lot of people, A) I might be the youngest person in the course at the age of 23, but also B) even my peers in high school struggled to find their “purpose”. And I was lucky enough to know pretty early on what that is and not lose sight of it.

There’s this phrase that applies pretty strongly and it goes “the artist is the child who survived”. Boy, did I. But I know I’m lucky. It was excruciating to sit through an education designed to make engineers fulling knowing what I wanted to do and the projects I’d be working away at if I wasn’t in that depressing building.

I don’t know what else to say. I think the course is great but designed for older people? I’m not sure if that’s helpful. Writing a blog post about how it’s the greatest, euphoric, borderline orgasmic experience of my short lifetime feels insincere.

I don’t even know what I’m supposed to write for next week’s blog post, I feel like it’ll be this without the background detail again, and each passing week I lose words to use until my blog post reads “ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” for a couple paragraphs. This could change, maybe

I’ll learn to love posting a blog like it’s 2005, but currently it’s a chore.