Anyone who knows me well, I believe, would tell you that I am driven, hard-working, motivated. When I make a promise, I move mountains to keep it. I am a bit old school perhaps, but I believe one’s word is one’s bond. I live by it.

When I fail to do what I say I’m going to do, I don’t sluff it off. I am hard on myself. I beat myself up. My self-talk slips into a pattern akin to a Drill Sargeant hollering at the weakest trainee.

Og’s second scroll is really quite profound. And the practice of loving and forgiving everyone, especially those that have wronged you (I’m working on it), I believe to be transformative. I just need to figure out how to do that with myself.

I have really fallen down this past 14 days. It started with not getting the movie poster done, or started. And, while I have been listening to my DMP recording since before the Master Key Experience (MKE), every night, all night, it is not in the style we learned last week, and not with the music.

I haven’t yet read the law of compensation this week, though I have kept up with the rest. I have not been able to do the sit as Haanel instructs this week, though I have tried in earnest each day, I have some kind of metal block I need to overcome.

I have not interacted in the member area. In fact, all areas of my life, not just MKE, I am struggling to manage.

Why? My situation right now is intense, nuanced and unique, but we all have struggles, sometimes our lives go through intense periods, but ultimately they are just, however valid they may be, excuses. So we adapt. We overcome. We persevere. As Og reminds me multiple times a day;

Adversity and discouragement will beat against my new shield and become as the softest of rains. Og Mandino

The good news, all the pressure in my life these last two weeks is the action required to achieve my DMP. It’s time sensitive, it’s imperative, and it’s exhausting. It’s almost as if there is old patterning really rooted around this that is fighting tooth and nail to keep me where I am.

Perhaps the discomfort is just part of the growth.

Up until now I have been really on top of it. And I have not been sitting idle. As I write this now, 2 days late, I can barely focus given all that I have to have done for tomorrow. It is taking all of my will to sit here and write.

So how do we move forward in times like this? I will greet this day with love in my heart. I will do my best.

I will welcome obstacles as they are my challenge. Og Mandino

I will get up. I will catch up. I will move forward. I will stop chastising the guy in the glass and tell him ‘I love you’. I will prevail.