When you have been hurting for a long time, you pray for the day when hurt no longer has a deep rooted space in your life. For me, it has been a longtime companion due to a situation I have been hoping to find peace with.
It’s hard when someone in your life has ignored you for a majority of it then expects so much from you. The pain deepens when you receive the aura of not being appreciated when you take care of things they need. The ache builds and the concrete around your heart hardens. Although I hurt, I keep doing because I care.
Deciding to participate in the Master Key Experience (MKE) was to find what makes me happy since I realized I lost it along life’s journey. In Week 7, I am realizing I am in dire need to find the “world within which controls the world without” as Haanel states in 4-14.
Until I learn how to utilize the Law of Substitution when the painful thoughts and situations present themselves, I will continue to feel cornered since I am constantly reliving the painful situations. The daily mental and emotional situations don’t help either. I am grateful for MKE for giving me the tools to purge the pain.
Moving forward, I have to focus on making disruptive changes in my life so I can be happy. If I make the effort to do my part, “Subby” will make things happen. Mindset of “Do It Now” is loading.
Jennifer, thanks so much for being so transparent–it seems the more personal our pain, the more universal it is. So thank you for your words of strength, hope, and determination that help others as well. I love your last sentences: “I am grateful for MKE for giving me the tools to purge the pain. Moving forward, I have to focus on making disruptive changes in my life so I can be happy. If I make the effort to do my part, “Subby” will make things happen. Mindset of “Do It Now” is loading.” Cheering you on, wonderful one!
The Law of Substitution is so powerful, Jennifer, used correctly it can fill your life with happiness!