I am terrified. Simply and completely terrified.
My dominant thoughts are not supporting me being productive, and I am doing battle to stay afloat mentally and emotionally. The future of the country in which I live is in serious peril. I suspect foul play as for some, the rules are made to be ignored or broken.
Is evil winning? How do I turn my fear into action for myself and my own tribe? This is a test of my resolve, I know.
So many swirling thoughts and a partner who is equally, if not more afraid than I am.
I did my readings and my sit this morning and began to feel better as I always do.
When my partner began voicing his fears, I let him share, but when he went on and on and on and on, I explained how I can’t have that be my dominant focus. I can’t move ahead when that is all I hear every day.
He agreed, said I was probably right and then proceeded just a few minutes later to begin again. He caught himself and immediately stopped. I pretended not to have heard the starting up again. He is much happier, and I certainly will be if I/we focus on what’s ahead that is good and positive.
He later told me I seem energized. I shared I have choices. I can be depressed and afraid or I can be positive; I’ve decided to be joyful. He shared how much that is helping him as well as a long warm hug.
I’ve lived much of my life afraid of one thing or another.
While I may still battle fear, I refuse to have my life run by fear any longer.
