I love the light for it shows me the way; yet, I love the darkness for it shows me the stars. Og Mandino

Self-doubt is reaching out to grab me this week. I’m resisting, but it’s hard. Seems so much easier in the short run to just let go and be what I’ve been. I know in the long-term that will not make me happy, so I’m struggling a bit.

I’ve reworked my PPNs so True Health is included. It’s been a bit of a month as we’ve had a health scare in the household that we’re learning to deal with.

This has caused me to revisit my own health and is the impetus for the change in PPN. Odd how it was easier for me to be positive earlier, but now it’s getting harder. I’m not sure what that’s about.

My DMP has been a struggle. Knowing what I want separate from the wants of others in my life is tough to discern. I’m a blue, and it’s always been easier for me to focus on others and to try to help them rather than to help myself.

I’ve also fallen behind with tasks, cards, recordings, etc. My readings and sits are still good, but I know I’m not checking off all the boxes at this point, and it’s making me feel down. I’m beginning to question whether I can really do this and change my reality, my life.

Maybe it’s my courage that’s flagging. I’m not sure. My hope and intention is I will get help on a private call this afternoon. Looking forward to that.

For now, I’ll head out to feed my rescue sheep which is my happy place and hope and intend I can be more diligent, more focused and more effective today.

I believe in the process; I’m just questioning whether I’m capable of bringing it successfully into my own life.

Post note: I met with my Guide yesterday which was hugely helpful. Felt better and more positive. It’s important to have the courage to reach out for help if you need it.