I Will Win

Some how I am really enjoying this scroll. I’m not sure whether it’s because the control is back with me, not that it wasn’t with me before but the feeling of just needing to persist and of just putting in that little bit of extra effort to get results really resonates.

I feel like the absolute control freak in my loves the Master Key Experience (MKE) because everything is finally in my control when I previously didn’t quite believe that it was. I’ve always been a great manifester.

Often, I can think back to the exact moment when I caused things to be but I’ve always struggled a little with the how. Previously things have apparently “just happened” but now I am aware of my part in things happening.

I know I will get better and better at it now, or more and more aware. It’s still amazing when things happen though and I don’t think I’m quite ready to claim it as being me.

Why is that though? Why is it that we work and work for control over out destinies, we get to a point where we realise that we have the control, we can see things that have happened that we had to have a hand in and yet we wont claim it.

I’m very aware that I didn’t even claim those last statements even though I know it should have been “I” in each one. Perhaps I just think that I want to be in control but really I’m petrified of all of that power and of the responsibility of the consequences of my choices…It’s a big deal. I know I’ll be ready to claim it eventually.

This week I’m also really resonating with “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy”. I feels so great repeating it over and over again. I completely identify with every word.

I’m sure everyone does, there’s something innately correct about it. It also feels great and right, repeating it for others like a prayer for them. I say it for my children for my family, for friends who are sick for friends who pop into my head for members of my mastermind. It feels good to sending this blessing out.

Somehow I’ve really been enjoying this week – even though I’m still not up to date but hey.