I am grateful for the repetition of this program so far.
Something clicked for me in this week’s webcast when Mark j said “Be honest about what you want… don’t write down anything you don’t want.”

Mark speaks about the conditioning that we ALL have… and I am seeing more and more layers of conditioning within myself. I have been struggling to write my DMP for the past 2 weeks due to not knowing parameters or having examples.

What I finally realized from yesterday’s webcast, is that I don’t have clarity on what it is that I actually want. I have been sitting with this since the webcast, unravelling why I don’t know what I want.

Here are some of the things that came to me:

If I don’t claim or say what I want, then I don’t have to take full responsibility for my life.

What if what I want changes? What if after I get what I want, I realize I don’t want it anymore?

What if what I want is unattainable? What do I, Melissa, actually want… not what feels attainable, not what society thinks, not what my husband wants…. but what do I want?

This week I am getting honest with myself about that. It feels scary and also exciting.

I knew the DMP was going to be one of the bigger challenges for me in this Master Key Experience.

It makes me feel a little sad that so many of us have no idea what we actually want.

So many of us are living in fight or flight and don’t have the capacity to even dream up what we desire, or are too afraid to imagine, or feel like its pointless because we think it will never actually happen.

This week is dedicated to slowing down and getting quiet enough to feel into what I truly want… atleast at this stage of my life!