Failure, like pain, is alien to my life.
(Og Mandino: The Greatest Salesman in the World, p52)
Making a claim like this … and going further, asserting that, in fact, I reject pain and failure … and instead, open to the wisdom and principles in these scrolls (while creating new good habits) is a staggeringly revolutionary and powerful choice. It is a choice I have repeated over and over again, several times a day, during the past week.
Why do I repeat the choice?
Because I forget that I have made the choice. I forget that the choice even exists. And I discover that I have drifted off into destructive habits of thought and accompanying action or rather, mostly, non-action. I seem to veer between this miserable place – and fantasy, for relief.
The pain is so familiar – it seems like a natural way of being… Until… Og Mandino reminds me that I can make a different choice. And so, I make a new choice because I believe him.
I find scheduling to be a challenge. I cannot simply impose a schedule with more tasks on to an already disordered lifestyle, for example, in relation to sleep and eating and time patterns for various responsibilities. All these activities are under review – as well as my physical home environment.
I am willing to enter change as a process – and to discover what this process of change invites and requires from me. I cannot simply do change through my mind, directing a few new behaviours that would seem to be useful. Rather, this past week has revealed to me that all aspects of my life are inter-related in an energetic configuration which needs deep and thorough realignment, at all levels.
