I’m determined to work through this persistently nagging lie that I’m gonna fail and not be self sufficient in time to relocate in January.

It IS a lie.

And yet…

I find myself with the knowledge to change my outcome

I’m NOT destined to failure and demise

I have choices

The wise choice is crystal clear

Do the ‘work’

Place my ‘faith’ in the positive outcome

MY positive outcome

Choose to replace the ‘old’ habits which keep me stuck

Choose to build ‘new’ habits that enable me to not only dream…

To make those dreams come true

Peace, safety, security and love

That is all that I want

Such things often taken for granted when in hand

Priceless when yearned for

Fork in the road

Dismiss all I’ve learned

Continue in despair

Praying for each day to be my last

Or

Take the road less traveled

For it is filled with work, sacrifice, failure…

While demanding
Humility, resilience, unrelenting focus

Most quit

Most have excuses

Most play the victim

I know for I have done the same

Bit by bit the cement breaks apart

Falls off

Only to reveal my true self

Imperfect, adventurous…

Generous, happy…

Joyful

And yet…

Afraid of the unknown..

This adventure ahead of me

(Sigh)

So I choose to fully embrace this adventure towards my new life

Put faith in implementing MKE instruction daily WILL get me to my goal

Focus steadfastly on doing my best learning and implementing MKE instruction.

Panic? Worry? Fear?

I acknowledge his presence and let it pass through me

Now I’m looking for steady improvement controlling my inward

And eagerly looking for evidence of change outward

Onward!