Week 3 here we are.

Another week of learning to overcome my programming. This is a far more difficult task that I had hoped. Partly because of my day to day programming and routine and also because i have a lot on my plate. I must say I am noticing a few differences overall.

I’m becoming more conscious of my thoughts and emotions. I step back and feel them without reacting. I see my thoughts and realize i can push unwanted thoughts out. I would love to see faster results but I understand 40 years of doing things one way doesn’t magically change over night. For this course to be 6 months, it cannot be a quick fix.

I will be honest. It’s still hard to say the mantras 3 times daily out loud. I do most days once or twice but I struggle to get the time for all 3.

I think again as per my last post, i notice even more now how I am the primary caregiver to my kids, how I’m the one who cooks, and cares for the house whole still doing all jobs I can. While running my business. It feels like i lack the support.

Even with those feeling, nothing goes to heart too much. I notice it and understand it, I move past it and accept my journey ahead. Somethings are become more clear and evident.

Some things are a bit harder for me to grasp completely. I don’t understand the sacrifice, perhaps I feel like ice sacrificed a huge portion, almost the last 10 years exclusively. It feels like I don’t have more to sacrifice. Although some what sadly, I lean towards the sacrifice of my relationship with my wife. Our marriage is more for the kids than our love and i think that is a massive hold for me to get where I need. It would be a hard sacrifice if that is what I had to choose.

Definitely not a sacrifice to just take lightly if that is the one thing I need to sacrifice to go forward. I do hope I get a beet comprehension of that requirement before making drastic choices.

I know that I’ve always felt a power within me to do great things, I know that time is now and I will continuously strive to improve myself and this journey with MKE is the gateway to that progress. I’m excited to get through this course and have it better my life for the better.