It’s a hard time of year for me. It’s a time to reflect on how my year has gone vs what I had hoped for. This year has not gone by any plan I could have devised. It has been a challenging year.

With losing my job and then following that up with a major surgery that has led me to leaning heavily financially on my family and digging myself into a financial hole, that not only am I not even sure how deep it is, I also have no idea how long it will take me to get out.

It brought me to a sad place that is a struggle for me to push thru, like running in mud. So, the mental diet has been a challenge. Some days I do better than others and I am able to keep the negatives out, other days not so much.

But I continue to restart and keep the promise to myself that I will get there, no matter how long it takes.

What strikes me this week, is the scroll. That every day is a new chance to persist, to start anew. To reach for my goals and dreams, regardless of the outcome of the day before.

It gives me hope, that I can, with each small step I take, and each new habit I do, I CAN get to where I want to be and this period of time will just be a blip in the rear view mirror that I won’t have to look at again.

I also find that the massive stack of cards that I flip thru with positive notes and things that I have accomplished, help to give me something positive to reach for when I am feeling down.

I don’t feel that I had an exciting or successful life, but so many of the cards remind me of happy memories that I have had, and right now I feel that I need that more than ever.

I greet this day with love, I persist and I win.