During this week’s webby when the eleventh prayer was mentioned it immediately made me think of the hymn “Make Me A Channel Of Your Peace”. This was one of my absolute favourite hymns at school.

My primary years were spent at Catholic school, initially on the grounds of a convent with a nun running the school and a smattering of nuns teaching. Over the years however, one by one, the nuns left and eventually the spot where the convent once stood was sold off, along with some of the school playing field, to bring funds to the diocese and make way for houses.

I googled after the webby to see if the 11th prayer and Make Me A Channel Of Your Peace were one in the same and they in fact are. I looked at the lyrics of a song that I loved singing in assembly and I wonder now whether on some level I had an understanding of what it all meant. They were just words to me then and a what I felt was a lovely tune:

Make me a channel of Your peace;
Where there is hatred, let me bring Your love;
Where there is injury, Your pardon, Lord,
And where there’s doubt, true faith in You.

CHORUS:
O Master, grant that I may never seek
So much to be consoled as to console,
To be understood as to understand,
To be loved as to love with all my soul.

Make me a channel of Your peace;
Where there’s despair in life, let me bring hope;
Where there is darkness, only light,
And where there’s sadness, ever joy.

(Chorus only after first 2 verses)
Make me a channel of Your peace;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
In giving of ourselves that we receive,
And in dying that we’re born to eternal life.

I’ve literally only just realised what I was singing (my sis will tell you I’m not great with song lyrics I get them wrong constantly, like Michael Jackson’s “the girl is mine, the dark brown girl is mine”).

It gave me goosebumps listening with my new perspective on things and knowing now what it means. Have I always been on this journey? Have I always known that this was the journey I was meant to be on? I feel slightly dumbfounded and weirded out, perhaps I’ve always had an inner knowing that I’ve never listened to/ have never been able to hear.

This new revelation is making me want to look back at everything. To think about all of the things that I really loved and all of the things that I really disliked and see if they are lessons in those things that I missed. I will probably do that for my next blog. Another thing that really struck me this week was point 28 in the lesson:

Realize that it will meet any and every requirement; that you have exactly the same potential ability which any individual ever did have or ever will have, because each is but an expression or manifestation of the One, all are parts of the whole, there is no difference in kind or quality, the only difference being one of degree. Charles Haanel

The bit about having the same potential ability of anyone is something that I’ve always thought about and knew to be true. It never made sense to me that someone should be able to do something and that I shouldn’t, not in a jealous way but in a matter of fact “I should be able to write an Iliad or an Odyssey. If Homer could do it, I should be able to as well” way.

I guess I’ve always thought like that but mostly in a very passive way, where I think about things but don’t act on them. I did act on the thought once and that was around my fortieth birthday. I decided that to mark my birthday I would do a water only fast for forty days and forty nights. I figured that Jesus did it, as did Moses and Buddha so I could too. So I did it.

It was one of the most transformative feats of my life. I was constantly fully connected to source it was wonderful; I’ve never felt so present. I don’t believe that there is anything in life that I couldn’t do if I set my mind to it. That fast along with giving birth to my last born alone at home, by choice, fully clicked me into my superhero powers but those are stories for another time.

I guess for me right now everything seems to be coming together in a type of full circle way but as though the circle is ever increasing, collecting experiences, memories and lessons from all ages and bringing them together in the now. What a journey this Master Key Experience is. What an experience indeed.