I longed for moments to be alone with myself. I felt it was time for her to go. All the suffering, being totally dependent, not being able to eat, walk or care for herself. When I thought nothing worse could happen, she stopped talking. She slept more, she was tube fed. But, she was my mother.

The being who had allowed me to enter this world. I felt it was a privilege to assist her in the last stages of her life…. But oh, was it hard! Don´t get me wrong, she had all the specialized care: a nurse who came 3 times a week, the doctor and nutritionist came every other week, etc. But it was hard, too hard. We were a team of four who were with her. They took turns, but I was always there.

It must have been all the worry, the stress, the constant demand for more, the sleepless nights, the bills piling, the specialized care… without a warning, like a thief in a dark night, the heart attack came. I wasn´t even aware that I had had a heart attack until they took me to the hospital.

Then she passed. I was so happy! I know it sounds a little crazy, but I was happy, glad she had found her peace. The once busy house, was now soooo empty. Just me! Ten years had vanished in a wink.

And then, the heart wrenching reality hit. I was so busy on the outside that I had forgotten to take care of me. I was in the dark boulevard of life. When I stopped to ask myself: Who am I? What do I want in life? Why am I here? I didn´t know. Somehow, somewhere I lost myself. Have you ever felt like that, lost?

So much to do, so much to see, and I was walking in the dark… It was then that I stumbled upon MKE… This was my chance to become alive again, find my purpose, find my way.

The first week was a whirlwind of emotions. I was elated at the opportunity but was so engaged in being more and trying to comprehend everything that I was still in the dark. Then, as time went by I began to really understand my subconscious and the marvel that it is. Reading Haanel, the scroll, the diet, the cards once and again, they all invited me to find the positive, my positive.

But it was not until yesterday that it hit me, I found myself in the pool repeating to myself: “Go G, you can do this! Remember: “Do it now!” Come on… you can do it! Push! Make the sprint! Push! Give it your best! Faster! Come on… you can do this! And I did… I did it! Even the lifeguards at the pool congratulated me. Not that I was looking for outside recognition, but it was given to me and I accepted it.

True growth comes from within. It is a matter of going every step of the way. Just go one step at a time. Just know that you are giving your very best all the time. It is a matter of persistence and the courage to venture forward even if you are unsure of the outcome. One thing is for sure: the best is yet to come!